...about my true relationship status. Tonight, while he was driving, I saw him with a ring on his left finger. I immediately gasped. He asked "What?" I said "Nothing... really." And then a few seconds later, he massaged his right arm again, and I saw there's no more ring. He took it out. I'm not sure if he figured that I saw the ring, but definitely he took off the ring as soon as I gasped and said nothing to him.
He is married.
He is married.
He is married.
I have been lying about this because... I don't want to lose him. I have been selfish, knowing the fact that he has a wife, yet I decided to stay. Because I don't want to lose him. I have been wanting to tell him that I knew his real marital status, but I'm too afraid of losing him. He's........ everything I have.
I see this as a relationship. I'm sure for him it's just a lust or feeling lonely. I really want this relationship to work, and the fact that I have fallen for him made it even difficult to let go. I don't want to ruin someone's marriage... really. But I don't wanna lose him.
Paul... why????
